TK // Someday

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Dearest You,yesterday's virtual talk had became very obvious that you really look forward to the life without me,a life that is just yourself and freedom.You wanted so much to break free and you sounded very dejected when I pursued you to get back together and through several promptings,you still gave the same old answers over and over.Hey,imagine if I did not initiate on 7 Dec,perhaps everything would be different.That is,the total opposite of the current.You being hurt and stressed while I am just as happy and naive if I never initiated it.Well,like you always said;everything happened for a reason,I believe this happened because of a certain reason/purpose that I need to know but sadly,I am still oblivion about it.May be in the near future,I will see it?Hopefully.Well,it feels very weird and empty without talking on the phone and SMS-ing you...Look back,it had been 3 weeks+ since we were over and everything changed so quickly.On top of that,you became quite cold towards me.I really do not want to let go but you wanted me to;you did not say it out for fear that I will be sad so you said,my choice but in actual fact,you wanted me to let go of everything and move ahead with life.Well,that is what I did in Thanksgiving today,I burnt all my regrets and they were ashes already,let the regrets go-a new year,a new beginning.I really do not know what to say though I have plenty of them to tell you,I want you to know that I really love you but to love you,I need to let you go-set you free to get the happiness you wanted.Since I do not have the ability to let you be happy,somebody else can then why not?To love someone is to see him being happy,then you will be happy.Right?You have your own charisma that attracted many girls but please chooose one that really suits you.For me,nobody is suitable,perhaps next time then I will start finding the correct one but right now,I am too busy with my school's things and really,I may not be that committed and exams are drawing near;not just prelims but National Examinations,so no joking matter...Yes,that is all for now,good luck in 2010,hope that you will be able to score in Os,anticipate rather than regret.Life is fun,full of ups and filled with downs,that is equilibrium in life.But,just believe that God is there to work miracles(: